Saturday, October 20, 2012
Craving to Create
I quickly learned that would not be.
Treatment was tiring and, sometimes, poisonous as my body unloaded its toxins and infections. Still, I recorded my encounters with the spoken word, media and spiritual buoys during a difficult time. I had hoped to write about it all to preserve some cathartic connections made in the hardest moments. But the writing about what I felt, read and thought never made it to paper or pixel.
Eighteen months later, I can gratefully say that I am not worse physically.
But my disease has not drastically improved either. The brain swelling and seeing stars has gone away, but I am still so tired. I lose my ability to stand by dinner time and I seem to have a hard time remembering things both near and far. Calendars, clocks, appointments, mail, telephone calls still intimidate and overwhelm me. The list can go on. But I am functional enough to read to my daughters, to tickle them and when it's laundry day, I fold and Sam puts away.
I am craving to do more, to create, even if it means that we do school on the couch all week! In order to get better, I feel compelled to press forward beyond this creative drought and do something!
Stay tuned for some new features at But Wherever I Go! And catching up on the past year with pictures and news of our family!